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I haven't posted here in three years, and in this time of retrospection I feel like such a juvenile in the past! We shall find soon enough, a sense to it all. I was also realising, I should really really wake up some of my neurons because I will be a lame old lady if I don't keep myself sharp. Thanks for rockin' oh-so-much!

hello. my name is julia. am i ever really sad? ahem... SO. i am not doing well. in school, that is. and hence i am all pooped about how important GPAs are. also... i feel 'right fucked up' but good. i get like this everyonce in awhile and... it ends up being okay in the end. its like i'm becoming or something? i'm not exactly sure how to discribe it but its not exactly bad. its a for of change or the end of some manner of dillusion or dishonestly towards myself. -have you ever met someone you love and yet... they like bush? You just cant... like someone the same way. can you love someone who says "you cant trust those towel heads

goodday... i suppose i'm in a good/bad mood i'm not really sure since visiting newfoundland. i'm not really sure about all these shrooms floating around the world when we have people like Aaron Hyrtle to take example of... i miss the quint alot.. i cant call my mom. I eat well, i spend less... i fight less with my sisters i'm getting a new job soon... i know i will. and i  am pretty deeply in love with Kyle... quite alot alot. i'm failing school. pretty hardcore. i will be dismissed. and have to take a year off a least. we'll find out. what am i doibng next year? going to jamaica? getting a dog? living with kira? colleen? mela